(careless whisper lol)
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The book this month for the Gazette's book club was Careless People by Sarah Wynn-Williams, and I got exactly 4% into it and decided to DNF (Did Not Finish). That is to say, I'm not gonna keep going. Sorgy! No punishment please :c
I just didn't really vibe with the book and it was december 29th and I was like, "I don't wanna read this in 48 hours to fit into an arbitrary deadline". Part of it was, very sincerely, not really particularly wanting to read the book. I didn't really like the narrator/author, which is maybe a harsh thing to say about an autobiographical book, but it's true. I'm not gonna elaborate on my dislike, because it's petty, but it's there.
I also didn't really like the subject of the book. Not just in the sense that I hate Facebook and Mark Zuckerberg —I do and I hope he dies 🤞— but also in the sense that I hate reading about Facebook and Mark Zuckerberg. I have next to no tolerance for gawking at history's great villains —a cathegory I think Zuckerberg belongs in, if only because I believe Facebook is to blame for >=75% of how the internet was ruined during my lifetime— and the little patience or curiosity I have for the subject was uh, taken out back and shot recently. (Don't worry 'bout it).
Ummm. And I'm also... going to try to make this real brief, but there was also the inciting incident... There's an anecdote the author told, and this is the specific thing that got me to drop the book, about how she underwent a really horrible traumatic experience as a child. And this specific horrible traumatic experience resonated with bad stuff I went through. And the book emotionally kicked me in the balls. And this ruined the idea of reading the rest of the book for me.
It's one of those things that's completely irrational... I'm not, like, mad at the author for sharing this anecdote, nor at the book for existing, nor at the book club for reading it. I'm just upset that it happened. I'm sensitive to this topic. So I dropped the book! Self care. (Wow!) I have a lot of strong feelings about the disparity of power between parent and child, I've posted about it before...
I wrote a bunch about it for this post and then deleted it all because I really, truly am just malding here. I really wish I had a better reason for dropping this book. Eight hours. After a shark bite! I got so mad about it that I texted my mom to tell her that I love her, which is at least constructive, and it's also true.
Anyway I read a Murderbot book instead and it was good. Thanks for reading lmao